im going to make a really long story short, I live by myself in an apartment, i'm not social at all or have many friends, i honestly enjoy being alone, i do get lonely sometimes though anyways, my dad died two years ago he wasn't my birth dad but he took me in and he was my dad even if he wasn't biological, i grew up in foster care until 7 years old, and like I said he passed away two years ago and I've kind of been lost ever sense then because he was my rock and only support i had, but I had no choice but to live on my own and I've been on my own since then and it's really difficult sometimes but I have no other option but to keep on going I've always had a job since I was 16 I work at a local grocery store in my town for almost 3 years and recently quit because I couldn't take it anymore because the high school kids that work there were really mean and picked on me a lot and I just couldn't go in there without having a panic attack and I would get in trouble and written up for having panic attacks due to the management and employees I haven't worked there in about two months I've tried looking for a job but I live in a really small town and there's not much options but I've been trying very hard and I haven't had any luck, i have major PTSD anxiety and depression and borderline personality disorder so it's very difficult to function but i always did my very best and did and do what i can for myself and not think of the bad things that of happened to me in the past, I've always made it on my own somehow but I'm just drowning in debt and bills at this point and I have shitty credit because i used my credit cards to pay what i could and what i needed to survive since i've not had a job, but i had a 200 limit to begin with since i had no credit but now so it is absolute shit. i apologize for the novel. i'm about to lose my apartment, my bills are piling up and i haven't found a job yet it's very limited where i live since it's a small town.